There are days when life could be unbearable.
I just have to remind myself,
I don’t always have to face it head on.
Sometimes, it would be better if
I would take a moment
To close my eyes
and just breathe…
It wouldn’t make things better,
But it would, for that brief period,
Give me a sense of peace
Knowing that I should still be grateful
To be alive.
More than once I have been asked, if I were to live my life over, go through all the those bumps and stumbles, pains and hurts, trips and falls one more time, what part would I skip. And every time I would give the same answer – NONE!
Yes, I have gone through a lot,
But with every experience I learned…
with every pain I learned to accept what is thrown at me;
with every hurt I learned to be strong for myself more than for anyone else;
with every tear I learned to value and treasure each smile and each laughter;
with every smile I learned to appreciate every moment spent with loved ones;
with every embrace I learned to recognize my own fragility;
and with every learning I came to be who I am now…
I am who I am, from the way I act and react to the way I think and feel, aged and matured because of experience more than the years.
And I have all of you to thank…
you who have been part of my past…
you who have inflicted me with pain, sorrow, despair, misery…
you who have given me happiness, joy, excitement, pleasure…
you who have taught me to be strong, to fight, to concede, to yield…
you whom I have loved, served, hurt, ignored…
I have learned my life lessons from all of you, and I will never have it any other way.
So, thank you.
Thank you
For everything that you’ve done for me
Thank you
For teaching me to be independent
Learned to do things on my own
Learned to go places by myself
Learned to wake up in the middle of the night without you beside me
Learned to go to bed alone without you there to talk to
Learned to sleep by myself not looking for a warm body to hug
Thank you
For teaching me to be strong
Learned to fend for myself
Learned to defend myself
Learned to not care about what others would think about me
Learned to hold my head high despite the tears
Learned to create a life for myself since didn’t feel I was part of yours
Thank you
For teaching me to be a fighter
Learned to fight the urge to cry
Learned to fight away the tears
Learned to fight the longing I feel for you
Learned to fight the loneliness of not being with you
Learned to fight the yearning of being your girl again
Thank you
Strength is learning how to see things from a different perspective, no matter how hard.
**Posted back in 2008 in Multiply
Spring, most definitely, is my favorite season. Not only because it is a lovely breather from the freezing Winter, but mainly because i find Spring so inspiring!
Spring reminds me how wonderful God is. Seeing how nature, God’s living creation, wakes up from the Winter slumber. The seemingly dead woody branches of trees and shrubs start to show buds of new life. Dried up leaves and brown stems enliven with color, rejuvenating the once dead scenery.
And just like all of God’s work, Spring awakening tells me that there is nothing that He throws at us that we cannot survive and rise above; not the fierce Winter, not problems nor trials and tribulation. God is good! We, like the plants, just need to learn to wake up from the stupor, raise our hands and thank Him for another sunshine, another quenching rain.
Beautiful sign of Spring
Wrote this birthday blog 3 years ago. I’m re-posting it to remind myself to always see my glass half filled, no matter how difficult it is…
In my moments of total desolation, i never questioned the pain. It may have brought me to my hands and knees, seemingly defeated, but still dragged at my feet to get through the day. Or it may have induced me to tears, crying myself to sleep, but still able to pick myself up every morning to face my adversity again.
Nothing can be severe enough for me to give up. Everything has its reason, and during those moments of despondency, i know the trials will end and i will emerge triumphant over them.
And i have, most of the time.
Despite the hardships, i thank you, for i see the strength in me to face and learn from them…
Despite the tribulation, i thank you, for i see the blessings afterward magnified a thousand fold…
Despite the struggle, i thank you, for i see the rewards to be more gratifying than getting them easy…
Despite the problems, i thank you, for i see the successes to be sweeter being hard earned as they are…
Despite the misfortunes, i thank you, for i see beauty in every ray of sunshine that breaks through the clouds…
And today more than any day, I thank you, for there is nothing more i can ever ask for.
I have everything i need, the people i love and those who love me.
My glass is half filled.
Content and satisfied at 34 37.
