Ok, I have been a narcissistic, selfish, self-centered, egotistic, egocentric, and all other self-something and ego-something a$$h0le the past week or two. (Unfortunately though, I’d probably be one again in another couple of weeks and at least 1 whole week a month.)

Anyway, now that I have overcome that pain-and-hormone-induced mental and emotional affliction, and the walls I have unwittingly built around me now lay crumpled around my feet, with renewed eyes, I see what has been happening around me more clearly.

I am not the only one who is going through a difficult time, or has problems, or is hurting. But even though I was aware of this before, it has always been “I am hurting because someone I know is hurting“, or “I am sad because someone I know is going through a tough time“. It is not always about me. I shouldn’t be the one fishing for sympathy when it isn’t me whose heart is broken, or whose son is on the operating table. But now that I know better, I want to be more actively involved in their struggles, rather than making the struggles my own and reaping the empathy.

I want to be responsible in helping them and not just feel their pain because a sturdy, strong hand can do more than a sympathetic word could. Yes, that’s what I will do.


8 thoughts on “Renewed…”

  1. Do not be so hard on yourself…life throws many curve balls at us and we cannot control them all, just roll with the punches….take a sweet selfish moment and smell the roses….you are really a treasure…truthfully…because you are always so real! Enjoy the moment!


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