Category Archives: Inspirational

Thank you God…

Dear God,

My life has been a roller coaster. Lots of dips and bumps, but just as much inclines. I try to keep up, go with the flow, and live it as placidly as i can, trying not to make the turns affect me in any way. I think i have succeeded in doing so…

In my moments of total desolation, i never questioned the pain. It may have brought me to my hands and knees, seemingly defeated, but still dragged at my feet to get through the day. Or it may have induced me to tears, crying myself to sleep, but still able to pick myself up every morning to face my adversity again.

Nothing can be severe enough for me to give up. Everything has its reason, and during those moments of despondency, i know the trials will end and i will emerge triumphant over them.

And i have, most of the time.

Despite the hardships, i thank you, for i see the strength in me to face and learn from them…

Despite the tribulation, i thank you, for i see the blessings afterward magnified a thousand fold…

Despite the struggle, i thank you, for i see the rewards to be more gratifying than getting them easy…

Despite the problems, i thank you, for i see the successes to be sweeter being hard earned as they are…

Despite the misfortunes, i thank you, for i see beauty in every ray of sunshine that breaks through the clouds…

And today more than any day, I thank you, for there is nothing more i can ever ask for.
I have everything i need, the people i love and those who love me.

My glass is half filled.

This is an old blog I posted on my birthday 2 years ago in one of my other blog sites. Just wanted to re-post it as a reminder to myself to thank God for everything that comes my way.

Changes

The trees are starting to change color. Some have already lost their leaves.
The weather is colder…
The season is changing.

Change is good.
Change gives you a chance to do better,
To move forward,
To grow up…

It’s difficult to see the positive when you are overwhelmed by all the changes.
But to let it overcome you,
To surrender to the emotional hold that these changes throw upon you,
Is also like giving up on being happy.
Missing out on the good things that the negativity is masking.

I don’t want that.
So I’ll take the change
And make it work for me, not against me.

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Inspiration as Diversion

I’ve been thriving all week! I need a diversion, and so I started writing again…

…I have to always remind myself that only I can make myself happy…
…I shape my own destiny, I am my own inspiration…
…I may not always be good at what I do, but who cares? As long as i love what I do and i still see the purpose for what I’m doing, then it doesn’t matter how I do it…

And that applies to everything…

Escape…

Going abroad, whether to live or to work, has never been part of the things I see myself doing in the future. Maybe that’s one of the reasons why whenever I try to imagine Canada, I couldn’t picture myself basking in the snow, or bundled up in warm clothes walking to work, or just about anything that would put me in that scenario.

But, it could also be because I did NOT want to think about leaving…

For the past month since we got our Visa, I’ve been trying to escape the anxiety and distress. Always looking for a diversion to get my mind as far away as possible from the thought of all my loved ones who’ll be left behind. I bought all these books so I can bury myself in its adventures and not think about my own story; I tried playing all these games again in Facebook… but they didn’t help.

Then I remembered a conversation I had with Tita Oh when I was still undecided about the whole thing. She just told me that I wasn’t getting any younger and that this is a lucky break for me. That I need to grab this opportunity by the balls because I might regret it if I don’t.

She’s right. I am not getting any younger, and at 35 I have always made decisions that are expected of me. But life is also about taking risks. Sometimes it pays to just let go and see where life brings you. As Carrie Underwood’s song goes:

Jesus,take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can’t do this on my own
I’m letting go.

And if He steers me to Canada, then Canada it is!

At least Gayl and Angel will be with me, and when things don’t work out for us out there, we can still come home with our heads held high knowing that we tried.